It’s funny when people ask me, oh are you still talking to so and so? Because in my head sometimes I hear it as, : Like wait do you have friends anymore?
Recently, I don’t mind this question. I am too inspired. I just want to wake up and accomplish my goals. I am a beast at blowing people off …
I feel like I am consumed in an unhealthy relationship with a boyfriend who takes up all my time so I never see my friends anymore, but I don’t have a boyfriend…
Funny how I love accomplishing goals and being inspired. In the back of my mind I have always thought things like, “aww I really want to be able to do a backflip before I die” (accomplished with senior year varsity cheerleading OW OW!!! WORKED MY @$$ OFF!!) or “I really want to be able to just run up a tree and do a back flip” here’s a list of the aspirations following my main goal of becoming a superhero:
- I really want to go to Living Light Culinary School and learn how to “cook” incredible raw vegan healing food
- I really want to go to Institute of Integrative Nutrition and become a holistic health counselor
- I really want to go to “Conscious Eating”’s author Gabriel Cousens’s retreat in Arizona, Tree of Life
- I really want to go to Hippocrates in florida and see them cure cancer
- I really want to jump off really high cliffs and not be scared
- Do 3 pull ups
Things like that. Being a strong superhero. Getting better at the activities I enjoy. Looking fear in the face, loving challenges. Another disease, another challenge for the unstoppable ME.
I would fall asleep thinking about these aspirations of mine. Getting excited about all the things I would do… once I got my degree. Because that’s what you do after high school. You go to college. So I was excited to study dietetics, nutrition, fitness, and health at Purdue! Where I have been a pretty good wanna-be superhero 🙂 .. anyways..
When the superhero goal became a fuzzy glimpse in the distance, the universe sent me the most compassionate lad, halfway through my sophormore year, who has done all of my aspirations. Well, 5 outta 6. Holistic health counselor, raw vegan chef from Living Light, went to Gabriel Cousens, can do well over 3 pull ups, jump off high cliffs, and do fucking back flips off of trees.. and gives food to homeless people.. and is.. ya know.. a fucking angel.
The universe sent me a superhero, whose time spent with me is always short, (or at least seems short), sweet, and much needed. Containing all of the superhero qualities I desire, like strength, and the know how to save the world.
All I want to do now is accomplish my goals and inspire others by doing what I love. Because, from dealing frusteratingly with my sister and observing sick people that I care about, a superhero can’t save someone who doesn’t want to be saved, no matter how great their powers.
We possess the most complex superpower. At my early stages of aspiring to be a superhero, I had no idea how complex our powers really could be.
They mess with peoples culture, their belief system, their comfort zones, and their habits. Though our superpower is extremely effective, it only works if the necessary individual accepts the stages of behavioral change.
I can’t help people. People help people. As my mom says a hundred times over,
So- that being said- it is very difficult to not be a frusterated crazy person about veganism!
Is that a superpower maybe? Speaking up when necessary? Where’s the line between obnoxious/ anti social and effective and life saving? Where’s the line between being weird because you don’t see your friends as often as you used to, or as you should, or being fucking awesome for being inspired and loving what your doing and having enough passion to enjoy doing you and accomplishing more and more goals everyday?!
I am struggling with this idea, this balance. It seems I have been seeing people who are excited and passionate about the same things as I am lately. I do want to see old friends and have close relationships, but they seem to be slowly fading. At first I was really upset about it, but lately, eh, I suppose people are always changing, and as we grow older new relationships form that resonate more and more with who we grow up to be. Which is nice 🙂 I met incredible friends at the Thai Fruit Fest! Its weird coming back from school for the summer. And its weird being all of a sudden so fucking inspired and passionate with saving the world and inspiring people and getting stronger and smashing it.
I don’t mean to be anti social or antisocial seeming. But with veganism, and that weird superpower I was talking about about speaking up, ya know? I think that a perfect situation can be a perfect opportunity. There are times when it is ok to say true to yourself and be honest (like when asked), and there are times when it is necessary to keep your mouth shut. I will never give anyone a hard time. And I hope nobody gives me a hard time! I am open to eating animal products if I so desire, honestly. (which I haven’t desired in a while! haha) It is the people who need to be saved who I am worried about.
All in all, I am the happiest luckiest girl in the world. A huge shout out to friends ❤ I am so lucky to have many great people in my life. I have a superhero, not a boyfriend.. but I know he loves to make me laugh. 😉 And I can’t wait to accomplish everything on my list. I’m certainly working on it ❤
Xoxo the aspiring superhero